Living Life

I think exam are the stupidest thing in the world. Yes let’s cram all that you have down in a whole into an exam that will fry your brain. The reason why exam are a stupid idea is because you have a test on everything you have done this year and you study for it but you still get a bad grade. What is stupider is when you try your hardest and you might not be the best in that subject but you pay attention and take down notes and then you fail the test and then someone else who pays hardly any attention in class and doesn’t study managers to get one of the highest scores in class.

I think the way they should see if someone really knows what they are doing in that subject is to have a test on what they have been learning about in the past three weeks because then they can absorb information better and not have to stress about getting a really good work. I think also instead of making exams like 50% of someone’s ATAR they should make all of their score come from the mini tests and projects because that is when you can really tell if someone is paying attention. They put in the work and effort and in exams people just stress out and might have done really good in the year but they fail their exams and then not go into uni because their score was to low.

Hopefully someone with a brain might change the school system to make it so your life doesn’t depend on exams and more depends with how much work you put in at school because some people do actually miss out on doing what they want because their score was to low to get into what uni course they want to do.

You know what annoys me is when I’m randomly thinking about something and then all these great ideas come to my head but when I actually go to do it I forget what I was going to do. It’s like as soon as I’m actually going to do something my brain is just like “error data could not be found” and then I angry because the I do something else but feel uninspired because it just doesn’t have the same feeling as the other idea. What’s most annoying of them all is when the teacher gives you a task and you start the task and you have a really amazing idea but then the bell goes and when you come back next lesson you don’t have the same inspiration as the first time and then you end up changing your idea to something else because you forget what you were going to do.

Another thing that is annoying is when you go to class but you have no motivation what so ever but your teacher expects you to finish the task by the end of the lesson but you just don’t know what to do and when you finally do the lesson ends. There are some days that I just want to go home because I just am not in the mood to do any work. Kolbe is a good school but sometimes I just get sick and tired of doing the same stuff and having the same subjects over and over again, it just starts to get really annoying. I miss being in primary school sometime because I always used to have different stuff on everyday but I just have the same six subjects over and over and over again in high school.

Some of my subject even though I do them every single day are actually fun because the teacher makes it interesting. I love multimedia because at least my teacher is enthusiastic about what she teachers. I hate when you go to subjects and the teacher just talks all lesson and then give you a work sheet and makes you copy down notes from the bored. Sure people will write down the notes but inside they are a zombie who just doesn’t care and when the teacher talks they fall asleep. Some teachers that talk to the class though can make it interesting if they make it sound fun and make people get involved a bit. My history teacher used to be strict but he was a very good teacher because he would sometimes share stories and make jokes but also kept to the subject so it was almost like you weren’t working at all.

Our enemies are mainly the people that despise us and want to see us crumble. But what about the enemy in the dark? The people you thought were your friends but turned out to the worse enemy of them all. I have always wondered what makes people betray other people when they were people you could trust. What I hate even worse is that you will never really know who is true to you even if you have known them for a long time.

Through out my childhood I have found friends that have stuck by me, stabbed me in the back and also just treated me badly. I remember the group I used to hang out with in year 6 were just being nice but they never really liked me. I used to hate in when we had to go in groups because everyone thought I was weird and so I was surprise when people invited me to their group for projects. By the end of primary school I just couldnt wait for high school because I knew I would finally get people who except me.When I got to high school I started to get to know more people but I was scared to be myself so I put a shell around myself. I was still a bit a fraud of what people would think of me.

One of my closest friends that I have in my life I met in year eight. I was scared though so when she showed me kindness I was suspicious and it took me a while to open up. In year 9 she was in most of my classes so now we started to get alone a whole lot more and now 3 years later I feel like I could trust her with anything. Another one of my friends I am now close friends was always nice to me and this is why I can trust her.She has never said anything to other people and what is sad is people talk about her and her boyfriend behind her back. I think that’s just stupid and wrong,they don’t even know her properly but I guess in the end they won’t have a great friend like her. One of my guy friends I trust at first I thought he was weird so I didn’t really like him. He now is a good person to trust because he hasn’t lied to me. Some of my friendships haven’t always been la di da. Some people in the past I’m now friends with have hurt me in the past but I don’t like holding grudges so we eventually worked it out.

In the whole year 11 year I think I have made some really great friendships over the years. I think it’s exciting I’m still meeting more people because I like having friend. I don’t like having enemies so when people do betray me I hope they regret it because I care about my friends and I hate people hating me and having enemies.

Music does a lot of things for different people. For some people it helps them calm down or it helps them with a certain moment in their lives. When I was young I never was really into music. When I did like a song though I would used to listen to it hours and repeat it over and over again because unlike my sister I never knew what to search for or what to look for. My sister use to try and suggest songs to me but I never was really into what she listen to until I was about 12-13. When I was little use use to play games on the computer like the original sims and I used to just sing and just enjoy myself but my mum use to tell me to be quiet because I sang to loud. I use to like singing to myself in private but was always shy because I was afraid of what other people thought.

I remember in yr 7 my music teacher all made us do an activity but while everyone was doing the activity he called people up one by one and when it came to me I thought I would try really hard and show him what I have. He made me sing a song and I thought I did a really good job, he said I did a good job as well but when it came to the notes bit I couldn’t do the really high notes. I tried my best but I don’t have a really high voice for a girl although it sounds female it can’t go that high. When I finished the notes he laughed. Then he said ” You sound like a muppet when you get to the high notes.” That actually hurt a lot even though he said some song artists have songs specially made for their voices I still found it insulting.

A lot has happened in the last year of my life. People have left my life, I have met new people and certain people just won’t seem to leave when I just sometime wish they did. When ever someone hurts me or I have a problem in my life and I cant stop thinking about it I escape into another world when listening to music. I have always wish I could escape from my life sometimes and when I need that escape I turn to my music because it comforts my and I can just relax and breath.

I don’t know what I would do without my music but I’m glad I have it because it’s one of the few things in my life that will comfort me when nothing else will.

In my life people have always talked about me behind my back. People used to tease me because I loved dolphins or because they thought I was weird. Some people even called me stupid. I don’t care about people who talk about me behind my back that I don’t know because everyone does that. What does annoy me and make me angry though is when you find out that people you trusted talk about you behind your back.

Trust is very important to me and it’s like once I trust someone a lot they go and betray me and talk about me behind my back. What hurts me the most is not that they talk about me behind my back but the fact that I trusted them and they just go and talk about things that aren’t true behind my back. Sometimes these days I don’t know who I can trust because when I trust some they stab me in the back. Most of the people I know don’t betray me but when I find out that someone I once trusted a lot is now talking about me and saying things that have never happened. It just feels like something has ripped inside of me and then I feel embarrass because I thought they liked me for who I was and I thought they were my friend and then I feel stupid because all of those things I told them I can’t get back.

I don’t get what makes people do this but I wish sometimes I could have a magical machine that tells me who really is my friend and who is just a fake or a person that will eventually betray my trust. Sometimes after finding out certain things certain people have said I just get destroyed because I thought I could trust them a lot and then it turns out they think your really just stupid and talk to you so they can feel higher about themselves. Sometimes I wish I could just escape into another world where I didn’t know these people but I have to go to school and see them every day and it makes me angry. I just wish people didn’t do this to other people because it can hurt other people a lot. I then wish I never met these people because trust to me is a thing that is very important and when I found out people break my trust it hurts me a lot.

Hopefully when I leave school I can find people I can trust but what scares me is that adults can sometimes be worse than teenagers because adults have more freedom over what they say. I just hope one day there will be at least one person who will never hurt me in my life because I’m sick and tired of people hurting me and talking about me behind my back.